Much

much happened tonight... a lot of assignments from the bible study that i attended... oh, if you don't know.. i'm attending this bible study group with a bunch of nice young adults... lazy to put up a photo.. we do bible study on Monday for now.. on a weekly basis... we're at 2 corinthians now..

got a few assignments...
1) transformation indicators... the things that indicates a transformed life... oh well... i've selected mine.. to keep healthy thoughts about people... and to love people the way God loves... which should be driven from my love towards God... work on some of these... step 1 for me? continue to work on my QT, pray... without skipping for this coming week... sounds like what i've been doing, but keep at it... the group is being paired up for accountability, and i'm with Daniel. (:

2) wei gave us $100 each.. we're supposed to use this money to our best understanding of being a good steward to the money God has given to us... and guess what? we can use it in any ways we want... SOME ONE ACTUALLY GAVE US $100 EACH!!!! its a crazy thought... and the worst is, this is someone else's money. If it was mine, i would have done a lot of things with it... and i have been... helping others, being nice and so on... seriously this is gonna be hard... and at the back of my mind, i know of a million things that could impress, be of help towards others, and so on... but if all i did was to think and with some smartness and impress others, this would really have been meaningless... Joshua fell flat against God's commander when he told Joshua that he's on neither side of the army, but he belongs to the Lord. Am i doing this for myself? or for God? will i seek to impress or do exactly what the Lord would want me to? i need to pray!

3) lead the next studies with Alicia. (:

on top of those, i thank the Lord for some of the ladies. i do seriously think that my friendship with sharon has gotten better... i don't know why and how it happened.. but i thank the Lord for her because now she seemed to be watching over me... though i'm older.. haha.. so thank u... and of course, ting... a very sincere lady who wants to grow in the Lord.. trusting the Lord that 1 day, someone will be inspired by who u are towards God... just by who you are, without needing you to be like anyone else.. so long u continue to stick around in God.. (jn15:5)

felt a lot the past week, with my sis getting married, with winston rubbing in some times... ahaa... i wish i was attached... the very fact that my contract is ending next month isn't helping.. it gives me the option of being able to change my job and move on to a place that i can get to know more people.. i'm not desperate.. and i'm not in a hurry... but options allow me to think about how i want things to be though... ting asked me... if i felt lonely... sure i did... but what to do? haii... then we talked about you jami... hahaa... well... as usual la... revolving ard the same topic each time.. anyway... we missed you.. ting said she missed u, and i missed having someone as blur as u to suan and tease... haha... (kidding)... hope u are still reading numbers... (yes, its boring)... and yes, i prayed for u... missed having you ard...

just wanna unload all my thoughts here tonight... with nothing to hide...

on the side note, how are u duckling? missed u... hope shifting wasn't too bad... winter coming soon... stay afloat, praying for u..