love and convenience

some things i do out of love, some things i do out of convenience, though the actions can be the same...

today i bought 5 pack of tissues from the auntie who walked to our table... and i conveniently bought 5 packs from her, at $1. well, it isn't expensive... i usually buy 1 pack at $2 from the handicaps... with that $1 spent.. i explained what wei wanted us to do with the $100... i explained to my 2 colleagues... (winston and andrew)... hahaha, andrew laughed and said... $99 more to go...

i kinda enjoy my time with these guys... we worked hard.. we play hard as well... i'm not that kinda person who like to walk too closely with my colleagues as i find it hard to draw the lines some times.. this time things seem different... i guess i'm beginning to treat people as people and not just workers... thank God... i see that in the r/s i have with other colleagues as well... i dun hammer people anymore.. if i would to love God, i would love His people.. if i would to love His people, i would treat them properly, as humans, not just workers... continue to do just that...

again :: how can i spend that $100...? should i do it in my best wisdom? or should i just wait for the chance to come and spend the $100 according to needs? should i do what is impt or should i do what is urgent? or should i do what is both urgent and impt? i'm not God... why should human get to decide how to spend God's money? this is still hard... Lord, would you lead me...